Sunday, March 6, 2011
LOL yesterday all the snow was allmost melted. now its all white out again. Yesterday my heat was off windows open .. today windows closed heat on... Gotta love the final round When Winter knocks out spring one day and then spring gets up and uppercuts winter. We all know Spring will win but when. as Fall gets defeated by Winter and Summer Defeats Spring. Fall Defeats Summer. The battle of the seasons never ends.
Saturday, March 5, 2011
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
We grow great by dreams. All big men are dreamers. They see things in the soft haze of a spring day or in the red fire of a long winter's evening. Some of us let these great dreams die, but others nourish and protect them; nurse them through bad days till they bring them to the sunshine and light, which comes always to those who sincerely hope that their dreams will come true.
—Woodrow T. Wilson
—Woodrow T. Wilson
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Wednesday, January 26, 2011
I figured it out.... We r a puzzle. all the humans alive around the world. each piece. so unique so different. but never the less. a puzzle piece. if we cannot find a way to put the pieces of the puzzle together we will never ever see the picture. hell yeah its hard. 1,000,000. piece puzzle . takes time. but if ur angry you the puzzle will remain but a million pieces with no purpose. the finished puzzle = future
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
One thing i think is funny interesting. I defend so many. yet the ones i defend r people also who are also raciest. either defending a fat white person to a Mexican. or a white to black or a Jew to a Hindu. a saint to devil. i defend people who all are haters them selfs and cannot see beyond ignorance why? To see its not one race or type of human that acts this way many do. So much work.
Watching the State of the Union. If your not your part of the problem. so do not complain about your government if you have no idea but what you think. lets see how these people who hold our future in there hand. work it tonight. even if you believe its all a stage it better to know what you face than to just walk blindly.
Monday, January 24, 2011
calling people names and using there weakness to prove your point which is wrong should never be a way to teach people. when a teacher has to use that way to make a theory correct. says one thing. Information. theory's . explanations examples. when told with knowledge get threw to any mind. when 1 cannot use knowledge and turns to discarding others just because they feel there superior in what they say means wrong!
People when trying to back up there case should use analogy which they have complete knowledge about. Why Make an argument with a system that you hardly know. Then as they see there analogy is wrong try to tweak it to a system that is not part of people who your trying to use as your keys to base your complete analogy about. Know what your saying before you try to use it as a tool. Otherwise you lose people.
So i walked out of group this morning. I am not sorry about it either. My couselor has so much great things that have helped me. but today i felt like i was in the pressence of a Dictator. It made no sense at all. I felt like people were being abused mentally and the information that was given contradicted its self so much i could sit there n listen anymore. I was mindful of what was going on. outside n inside myself
Sunday, January 23, 2011
Saturday, January 22, 2011
This week in Docs: Video player in the document list - Official Google Docs Blog http://ping.fm/9PEA5
I tell ya. big fish, little fish. It seems like we spend more time hurting ourself and each other for what. just your life. one life. for a moment. This docu and seeing how masterful people work for negative interest amazes me. If we could just turn that around. It seems like many see no one. but themselfs. is it human nature....
its amazing how we get away with persecuting other countries for wrong doing. when we have the same things going on here. I guess if you are ignorant and know things only ...by what you told. its easy for them to do what they do. who ever questions. or even takes the time to understand. many would rather watch Snookie. Yet the constantly insult misrepresent what they do not even seek. I see why they do it tho. Its easy. Many minds alive do not have the capability to rationalize and or seek truth. and with millions of those minds. that will believe what there told. while you live on top of the world. rich as can be. would you change it. Invisible slavery. they dont even know.
This is something i never learned in rehab/ or in group. which now raises a major flag in my life. It should be something we learn. what to do when the threat to what you become turns from a mental thought desire. to a physical pain unexpected to play a part in the game. What funny to me. Is if i wasn't so strong mentally right now. I would have been in the hospital. finding relief. But i know. the solution to my problem is also my forbidden fruit. I just hope it goes on its own.
that does not go away. How can i live life with pain. and now relief. This worries me. I know i cannot have opiates. and after so long of overcoming the thought mentally. the physical threat is nothing i prepared for. I just hope it gets better. without further assistance. And now i am battling not a mental call for pain relief but a physical one. One which is a new voice against the army of sobriety in my thoughts. how far will my mental army be able to control and keep me safe from a threat. a real one.
so another obstical in my road. Sobriety and recovery have conquered in my brain. I have learned how to control and manage my addiction. One thing i never planned for. One thing never taught. Is today a concern. Last week my back acted up. I 100% thought it would be gone today. today i'm at 75%. I'm at another obstical. go figure. Did my Suboxone mask a true problem. Now showing. and if this is a true issue --cont
Friday, January 21, 2011
i am trying to remember a video game from the old days nintendo. it was 4 player. or 4 ppl to choose. One was wizard. One A girl in amor. a viking and a heman type. The entire screen was the board. there would be millions of ghost and you would have to travel around a maze to get to the next level. magic something. err i hate it when i forget.
When i think about space. how it never ends. I wonder.. is there something outside of space. as space is outside of us. what could be outside of space. There is so much going on. beyond us. sometimes to hard to imagine it. This life i live is not forever. the possibilities of what is waiting are endless. i wonder will we ever be able to travel in death. be able to bring someone back after they die in the future.
http://www.ted.com/ This is a great place to go. TED.com
Riveting talks by remarkable people, free to the world
Riveting talks by remarkable people, free to the world
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Another thing that made me saw awwww. Everyone was concerned with the people i was hanging with. Claimed they were Evil. Yet all the people they were with while they outcasted us. were the same people who my brother hung out with. Yet he died from that. I lived. so intruth. who was the wolf. the ones who looked that part. or the ones who hid.
what ponders me about this is Carl had money and other stuff that was never found. either someone took it. and is hiding a secret from me. and that makes me mad. losers. help me put an end to this mystery in my mind. i do not care about the money. nor will i hate you for what you did. I just know someone has a secret. set yourself free and tell me.
I learn something new each time i read these reports. they say there was 50 ppl at the scene. i did not even notice that. and i love how they took my Marilyn Manson posters as satanic worship. lol. But i completely understand for people who dont see farther than whats in front of them tend to make claims of rational which can be ignorance. they never mentioned the bible in the house. nor the cross hanging on the wall. just sought neg. interesting
"If you're walking on a path and not kicking up dust, then you"re not walking on a path. Whenever you make true change in your life, things get moved around. Friends change, career changes and people are not always happy with your growth. True paths are never smooth. So recognize that as you move forward in your life, not everyone is going to support you and your decisions. Be OK with that and keep on walking. "
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
i love that moment when you say something impossible but it take people second to get. that internal search that last a split second is so impressive. the empty look confused unsure look in there eyes as they internally in there mind make sense of the off key suggestion made. its priceless. the laugh when they get it or the straight answer like thats not possible is priceless.
I got 5 vile's of blood sucked today. it took me an hour to get in. 2mins to give the sample... i dont know what was goin on. but lots of ppl in the lab today getting blood work. It was funny i started getting restless and i would go up to the window and say i have been here for 10 hours. with a very serious face. and the reaction is priceless. ---cont in comment----
i wonder if one day we will be able to translate animal's languages. to the point we could conversate with em. One thing i realized is that animals have telepathy Why do i say this. watch em. more so than not they understand each other without saying much not like us. we need to talk so ppl understand. and reading people like animals read each other would never work. just thinking.
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Did my birds not lay more eggs. i hope they get it right this time. Its funny watching how there 3 bird society works. there best buds one min. sharing nesting sites the 2 females but the green ruled the roost. now the white one is in control of her egg and the male . blue defends the white. Were as before the green one only friended the white. now the white turned her back. and there society has been flipped .
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
I for one would not care if FaceBook gave out my phone number. I understand that if someone wants my number there gonna get it. Private information. If you cannot be you and be open about it. then maybe your not you or your doing something you think yourself is not good. I say whatever. to the world. See me all of me. How else can you like me. If i hide..............
I messed up my lower back the other day. whats funny is when i wanted something like this to happen to get drugs it never did. now that i don't want it to happen. it happens. lol I tell ya one thing i understand why the test the doctors gave me when i went in yielded nothing. oh well its getting better just feel like a old person. lol
Monday, January 17, 2011
just got home from group. It was another great group. tho its for drugs and alcohol we talk more about behaviors and personal growth that intertwines with sobriety. Its funny tho tha table still denies his 4 dwi and ankle bracelet make him an alcoholic. i know many of you drink. but would you know you had a problem after 4 dwi's and an ankle bracelet? i mean what more do you want. Prison? Death? Murder??? denial
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Saturday, January 15, 2011
Wow i never knew all i now know after watching this Islam what the west needs to know. Its so sad truly. These wars by religions. There book says from this: GOD Why do we allow the past to control our future. Why can't we just be human. and live life without the fear of a hell if we do not conform one way. or death if we do not conform another way.
Friday, January 14, 2011
Thursday, January 13, 2011
i have been thinking. could the masses ever run life together. or must there always be one person who is "KING, President" etc. I mean cause the masses the majority r the ones who get the short stick. yet given a long stick could it work. I do not know. My thinking has lead me to think not. PPL have been so programed that there way is the way. to work together in common interest would involve lots of change. IDK
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
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how could you question Hilary Clinton for saying The shooting the other day is Terrorism. Yeah he might of been white and off his rocker but she's correct in saying it was a act of terrorism. the world has Terrorism. People who just hurt innocent threw violence cause there words cant do a damm thing. WEAK PPL. Terrorist. GUNS R FOR PU$$YS. you wanna change something use the most powerful weapon your mind.
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how could you question Hilary Clinton for saying The shooting the other day is Terrorism. Yeah he might of been white and off his rocker but she's correct in saying it was a act of terrorism. the world has Terrorism. People who just hurt innocent threw violence cause there words cant do a damm thing. WEAK PPL. Terrorist. GUNS R FOR PU$$YS. you wanna change something use the most powerful weapon your mind.
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just went over to tape a note on the ladys door next door poor dog has been barking all day since about 8am. yess i offered to walk it for free since i am here. just think if your gonna get a pet you should first know you alone can give it what it needs. if you cant why get one. whatever the case. its a responsibility you choose and no matter what should be able to handle. I consider that animal cruelty whats goinon
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just went over to tape a note on the ladys door next door poor dog has been barking all day since about 8am. yess i offered to walk it for free since i am here. just think if your gonna get a pet you should first know you alone can give it what it needs. if you cant why get one. whatever the case. its a responsibility you choose and no matter what should be able to handle. I consider that animal cruelty whats goinon
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Sarah Palin she speaks and uses such over the top words that get her in more chaos than anything else she says. if the lady just spoke 2011 English she would go far. now shes in so much trouble with the Jews. when she said so much more. But one word she used like always will derail her.
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Sarah Palin she speaks and uses such over the top words that get her in more chaos than anything else she says. if the lady just spoke 2011 English she would go far. now shes in so much trouble with the Jews. when she said so much more. But one word she used like always will derail her.
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update: My Birds and the 11 eggs. after a month of sitting on them about 5 days ago all the eggs were broken by the birds themselfs. i am glad i did not interfere and step in like many books said too. Whatever stress they say comes to them. They were givin the ability to try and when failed choose to destroy their own egg. I was hoping for lil ones.
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update: My Birds and the 11 eggs. after a month of sitting on them about 5 days ago all the eggs were broken by the birds themselfs. i am glad i did not interfere and step in like many books said too. Whatever stress they say comes to them. They were givin the ability to try and when failed choose to destroy their own egg. I was hoping for lil ones.
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Monday, January 10, 2011
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So i am still on my 2mg daily dose of Suboxone. Its amazing how much opioids can alter your chemistry lowering my dose has made me so tired mentally. Its like a reorganization of everything and a loss of desire to do much of anything. i wonder how long it will take my mind to fix itself.
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I tell ya my Picasa is Uploading massive amounts of information at the moment that its disrupting the strength of my WiFi. Is that possible? how much invisible information can i fit in WiFi. lol love it. People in the past would say you cant send information threw the air. now we know better. do not become one of them. People who think anything is not possible. time will prove you wrong.
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I tell ya my Picasa is Uploading massive amounts of information at the moment that its disrupting the strength of my WiFi. Is that possible? how much invisible information can i fit in WiFi. lol love it. People in the past would say you cant send information threw the air. now we know better. do not become one of them. People who think anything is not possible. time will prove you wrong.
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Who ever comes up with Technology that is smart enough to copy hand written documents etc into typed word is gonna be filthy rich. I am talking about software that could read anyone's hand writting. you know how hard that is for some of us when the writing is not like us that write neatly. They have scanners to do this with typed stuff like books etc. but not hand writing.
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Who ever comes up with Technology that is smart enough to copy hand written documents etc into typed word is gonna be filthy rich. I am talking about software that could read anyone's hand writting. you know how hard that is for some of us when the writing is not like us that write neatly. They have scanners to do this with typed stuff like books etc. but not hand writing.
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See if i ran this country i would change the economy one simple way. I would hire people to Add information like i am doing. to the Internet. I could employ billions. use the info to improve life. education. history and more. All that could be sold to pay for the information. and if you did not want to share. no problem. If there no jobs. Think outside the box. am i the only one who does? sometimes i wonder.
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See if i ran this country i would change the economy one simple way. I would hire people to Add information like i am doing. to the Internet. I could employ billions. use the info to improve life. education. history and more. All that could be sold to pay for the information. and if you did not want to share. no problem. If there no jobs. Think outside the box. am i the only one who does? sometimes i wonder.
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Saturday, January 1, 2011
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